Psaryce's Sandbox

Busy Day?

Psaryce — Wed, 01 Feb 2012 21:50:00 +0000

I haven’t had time to write today. Well until now that is. I can’t think of anything particularly important that got done – just lots and lots of little things. And a few spanners thrown into the works along the way. The first spanner nearly set me off on a downward sprial. I struggled and fought and eventually won the battle. Listening to Tub Thumping by Chumbawamba a few times at max volume didn’t hurt.

But aside from re-washing a load of laundry that I washed yesterday and forgot to get out, I can’t think why I was so busy! I paid my rent, cooked tea and pinned a few bits together to be sewn, and planned a few workshops I’d like to do. At normal speed this would have been breezed through in under an hour. Perhaps that first spanner muddled my mind; made me less able to stay focused.

Still, I cannot see how did it took me all day! And I have yet to do the dishes from tea.

Psaryce x

100 Footsteps

Psaryce — Tue, 31 Jan 2012 14:36:31 +0000

It is literally 100 footsteps from my front door and the Tesco Express in the corner near my house. I counted them today. It may seem a silly thing to do but I had a good enough reason (well good enough for my mind).

Before popping over to get a few things (milk, chips for tea, tobacco, etc.), I logged into my bank account. I transferred £30, grabbed my keys and shopping bag then left the house. I grabbed the milk then the chips (I’m forever popping in there so went straight to them without any hunting or dawdling) then headed for the till. Hi, how ya doing, blah, blah whilst Adam rang up my items and some tobacco. Pop in my card, enter the pin … DECLINED!

WTF?!?!?! I literally had JUST put money in! We tried again … no joy. I paid cash for the tobacco and he set the rest aside. Theres a cashpoint right outside the store (naturally) so I tried to withdraw £10 as I have had issues with my card in the store before … INSUFFICIENT FUNDS. Ugggghhhh! How can it possibly be?!

I go back home. I log into my bank. Available balance £6! I don’t get it at all. How can £24 have disappeared in that little space of time? In just 100 footsteps? I transfer another £10 from my savings, rush back to the cashpoint and withdraw the needed money. Adam thinks it is funny when I tell him as he rings my items through a second time (minus the tobacco). I didn’t. I still don’t. I am baffled at what transaction is sitting there disrupting my available balance. I have thought about it, gone through recent receipts, looked through direct debits, etc. I can find nothing that should be awaiting payment. Grrrr.

I HATE BANKS!!!!

Psaryce x

Fighting Spirit Kicks In

Psaryce — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 21:30:10 +0000

Surprisingly I am not feeling bad today at all. Instead of withdrawing, I have been making plans for the future – mine and my daughter’s. At some point between yesterday afternoon and this morning, I remembered that I’m an American. As such, I have a deeply instilled hatred of giving in and an even more ingrained “underdog” spirit that causes me to fight back. The awesome thing is that for the first time in ages, I have bounced back at my usual speedy rate.

So, I now have my eyes wide open and am shifting my focus and energy onto what truly matters the most. My daughter and myself. We are quite a good team she and I and I am grateful to have her in my life. We laugh, we argue and we love. Now with my new plans, we will live.

Now all this means I cannot procrastinate any more – this is a good thing. It also means I have lots and lots to do. Luckily there are not too many dishes to wash up from tea tonight so I can wizz through those. Then I can shift all my stuff into my new fridge/freezer! Sad to be so excited about a kitchen appliance but we both cannot wait to start using it. Having to let it stand for 24 hours has been making us both anxious.

Ahhh simple pleasures

Psaryce x